this is what insanity tastes like

I love you.

But you’ll never see it, because you’ve abandoned me.

I’m literally crying right now because I can’t handle my feelings for you. And not in the good way.

why do I always crush on the most unobtainable people. WHY.

I’m sick of living like this. I’ve had this crush problem for years and years now. I want help… I just don’t know where to go to find it.

For fuck’s sake, I have Courtney! She’s an amazing girlfriend, more than I could have ever asked for! I thank my lucky fucking stars every day because I’m not even worthy of her. But I still have feelings for you, somehow. Somehow my feelings persist.